“I thought you dead.”
“Did you mourn?”
“We all did.”
Okay, so this is obviously post-Thor, pre-Avengers. Thor was heartbroken. I feel like Thor never truly appreciated Loki, always took him for granted. Then, having seen what Loki had become after being pushed in Thor’s shadow all those years, Thor blamed himself after Loki was gone. He went through every cruel thing, every time he’d laughed at him in front of his friends, every time he’d pushed him out of the way to make way for his own glory- and felt responsible for what he thought was Loki’s death. He felt like he’d driven him to it.
Yeah, I don’t know. I just have a lot of feels right now.
And you just inspired some more angst from me. Our takes on Thor are very similar, so this is what my mind did.
“An Apology Too Late” [drabble] Rated: GA (angst)
Loki, my brother -
I’m so sorry.
Had I known that you were breaking, I would have come for you.
Had I known that you felt so alone, I would never have left your side, even for a moment.
I would cradle your head close to my breast to cover your eyes from the laughter of the cruel men.
I would take back every unkind word I spoke to you, and bury them so even the winds could not hear. I would place my hands upon your ears to keep you from hearing them - from me.
Had I known that you thought us unequal I would have sat by your side every moment of the day, only to rise when you did.
Had I known that you were so pained, I would have bound myself to the same torture.
I saw you with my own eyes, letting go, and I am shamed in that I did not fight father to follow you.
I saw your fingers uncurl one by one, and I am shamed that I could not reach far enough.
I saw the emptiness swallow you whole, and I am shamed that I did not save you.
Had I known that your heart was so torn and shattered, I would have given you mine.
Had I known that you felt you were in my shadow I would have gladly embraced eclipse.
Had I known that you were breaking, I would’ve have come for you - to hold you together.
I’m so sorry.
When we meet again, I hope that may forgive me. Forgive me for my blindness, forgive me for my mistakes, forgive me for not showing you the love you deserved.
I shall see you soon, Loki. My brother.
(Source: leviacass, via mistresskikisshiphassailed)